The thing that has been the most revealing to me through this whole process is the "why" of my shopping habits. I knew that I enjoyed a jaunt to the thrift store or a stroll through target's shiny aisles, but I don't think I fully grasped the emotional relief that shopping can offer. I shop because I am hurt or angry or bored or insecure. Hardly ever do I shop because I actually need something. This Sunday that came so plainly to a head. After a hurtful, disappointing afternoon at the end of a somewhat full weekend of entertaining company, my first response was only to immerse myself in the mismatched racks of my local goodwill. I wanted to buy something, anything that made me feel cute and hip and pulled together. The exact opposite of how I felt at that moment.
I was grateful that it was shopping and not food that I craved(which has been my vice before), but I kept thinking that I needed to channel these emotions into something healthier, like yoga or running. My post baby body has never quite returned to the glory that once was and I have done nothing, zip, zilch to help it. I struggle to keep up with everything else that I have to do and all the things that I really want to do and I just haven't found the motivation. Until now. I am tired of being tired, no energy by the end of my days. I am also tired of my favorite pieces of clothing fitting awkwardly or not at all. Tired of being self-conscious, insecure and frumpy... No more, I say! I will start to make time for the healthy, active me and I will find a new, healthier place to channel and deal with these negative emotions.
So, overall as I look back over the last 6 weeks, I feel good about the changes I have made in my spending. I also know that removing that coping mechanism, even inadvertently, has helped me to get out of an unhealthy rut that I had been stuck in. I would love to hear from you: what are your favorite healthy ways to deal with stress and negativity, in your life?
(running shoes from timtak's photostream)
Now, back to our regular crafty program...