This past month has been so fun in so many ways. I love being a mom, love, love, love, that little bean and I don't even mind getting up in the middle of the night. That being said, some things have been a little harder then I thought they would be. Here are a few things that I have learned or that have been punctuated for me over the past 4 weeks, the good, the bad and the ugly.
#1 - I love that little baby more then I ever thought possible. i have always liked kids, but I had no idea just how much I could be smitten with this baby. I love watching her facial expressions, talking with her, laughing at all of her crazy stretches and grunts as she wakes up. It has been crazy to see how much she has grown and changed already. I can't imagine not having her around.
#2 - Breastfeeding may be natural, but it ain't always easy. This was something I thought would be a no brainer with a few of the usual challenges (chapped nipples and the like). I never expected it not to work... at all. About 5 days after Avery was born, we realized that she wasn't eating properly. She had lost a pound and a half from her birth weight. She was tiny and had no energy. So, we did a crash course in bottle feeding overnight and put on 6 ounces in 18 hours. We then spent the next week doing this crazy cup feeding thing in combo with the bottle, meeting with lactation, pumping every 2-3 hours. Final diagnosis, small baby, small mouth, big nipples, in conjunction with a bad sucking habit too. So now, 4 weeks later, I am still pumping and bottle feeding, trying to get that stinker to latch on. Oh, and this week we had the fun of a breast infection. Woo-hoo. Hopefully things will get easier soon.
#3 - Small newborns with cute skinny thighs do not always work with cloth diapers. I had everything ready, but as they say, "the best laid plans...". So, until she plumped up, we had to use disposables to prevent yucky leaks and blowouts. She is now big enough, so now I am just getting the best combo worked out so they are not too bulky.
#4 - Everything takes more time then I thought it would. Getting out of the house, pumping all the time. I don't have nearly as much time as I thought I would and time goes soooooo fast. I seem to be getting more efficient as time goes by, so hopefully by the time I have to go back to work, I have things a little bit more under control. But I don't know if time is ever going to slow down.
#5 - I am more forgetful then I thought I would be. Everyone says that children kill brain cells, but I didn't believe them. I still don't completely agree, but the pot of melted breast pump parts is a good indication that I am not as sharp as I once was. Also, despite the crazy pumping schedule, I still manage to forget to eat all of the time. Getting better, but still not always there.
#6 - (I knew this before, but it has been reiterated over and over.) I don't want to go back to work in a few weeks. I just want to stay home with that little baby and work on my house and projects (some of which I will blog about soon).